I wrote this in the days after Charlie’s passing and never shared it. Today, on his heavenly birthday, I want to release it into the world — a prayer, a memory, and a promise. His fire still burns, and may it continue to ignite us all.
I have been mourning —
since the very moment the newsflash lit up my screen.
Charlie Kirk. Assassinated.
Thursday froze,
and I have been weeping ever since.
I canceled my plans.
I stayed home.
I stayed quiet.
I let my body feel it all,
and in the stillness,
I learned again how to lean into God,
into grace,
into the ache that only heaven can hold.
All over the world,
people are sharing his words,
his laughter,
his fire.
And my heart has broken again and again.
I have never wept like this for anyone before —
so I know this is Holy.
I know this is God.
And today,
it struck me like lightning:
Charlie died for God.
Jesus called him home.
His mission was complete.
His work was to ignite a fire in all of us,
and oh, how it burns now.
I weep for Erica,
for her strength,
for the weight she carries.
I weep for his children,
who will grow up without him here on earth.
But even in this,
I hear Jesus whisper:
This is what I called him to.
This is what I have called her to.
And this is what I have called you to, too.
I believe —
with all that I am —
that God knit me together in the womb,
for His plan,
not mine.
And so I pray:
Holy Ghost, come.
Jesus, come.
God, hold me close.
Angels, surround me.
Mother Mary, be near.
Keep me from conforming
to the patterns of this world.
Anchor me in You.
Remind me who I am.
Because now,
I know who I am.
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Blessing
May this fire that Charlie lit burn bright within me.
May it not be wasted.
May I walk forward with courage,
even through tears,
and live every breath as worship.
Lord, let this grief become seed,
planted in my soul,
growing into faith unshakable.
And let Your kingdom come —
on earth, in me, in all of us —
just as it is in heaven.
Amen.
With grace and presence,
Kellie J. Wright
Transformation Guide | Author | Speaker
Creator of Internal Journeys™ Internal Narcissus™ Internal Narcissa™
Host of the From Light to Christ™ Podcast
“Truth and beauty are only a flip of the switch away.”
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